9/12/19 – Journal Entry

Posted on by itsjaimarie

7:08 AM

Right now I’m sitting barefoot outside on my yoga mat, under a tree. This is peace. This is what peace looks and feels like, I know it is. I’ve reached a state of serenity I’ve never experienced in my 21 years on this earth. I’ve fallen in love with the idea of creating the life I want to live and have been showing up every day to make it a reality.

As I sit here, watching the sun rise, I think of all the times I’ve wanted to give up and all the times I’ve tried to. I think of how if any of my suicide attempts had fallen through, I wouldn’t be experiencing this moment. I wouldn’t be alive to sit under this tree, sip my coffee, and watch the sun tell me good morning. I wouldn’t be alive to witness things getting better.

But I am. For some reason it wasn’t my time to die. I have a purpose.

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Jai Marie is a freelance writer and blogger from Indiana. As a child, she’d lock herself in her room and spend hours writing in her notebook. She started out journaling, writing music, and poetry. While Jai continues to write in these areas, she also explores other niches, such as short story creation and blogging. She also offers writing services under the name J.M. Writes. The itsjaimarie blog was started as a way for Jai to express her creativity and inspire others. It's grown into a platform focused on spreading mental health awareness and discussing different aspects of spirituality. Aside from writing, she loves listening to true crime podcasts, communing with nature, and meditating with her crystals.