3/15/20 – Journal Entry

Today feels like…waking up to the sun telling me good morning. Today feels like…Erykah Badu on repeat. Today feels like…dancing around the kitchen in my pajamas. Today feels like… the smell of fresh coffee brewing. Today feels like…sitting alone in meditation. Today feels like…recovery after a failed suicide attempt. Today feels like…hope. Today feels like…joy. […]

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2/23/20 – Journal Entry

Trigger warning: Suicide I recently got released from the hospital after being admitted because of two back to back suicide attempts. I overdosed both times. I’m not ok and it’ll probably be a while before I am again. But I’m no longer suicidal so that counts for something. During my first attempt, I was drunk. […]

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Bipolar Disorder vs. Depression

When I was 11 or 12, I was diagnosed with major depressive disorder (MDD). At the time, this diagnosis seemed accurate but as the years passed, it seemed that something more was wrong. I switched therapists and psychiatrists countless times and they all said the same thing. My mom also voiced her concerns to them, […]

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9/12/19 – Journal Entry

7:08 AM Right now I’m sitting barefoot outside on my yoga mat, under a tree. This is peace. This is what peace looks and feels like, I know it is. I’ve reached a state of serenity I’ve never experienced in my 21 years on this earth. I’ve fallen in love with the idea of creating […]

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