If you’ve been following my blog for a while, you’d know that I’ve had multiple suicide attempts this year. Shit got dark quickly. Two of these attempts were just a few days apart and the third one was a few weeks later. Even after my hospitalization, I wasn’t ok. Most days I felt stuck and […]
Read More Recovering From A Suicide AttemptWhen I was first diagnosed with bipolar 1 disorder, I was overwhelmed with a range of emotions. On one hand, I felt relieved to finally have a proper diagnosis. On the other hand, I was pissed at every psychiatrist and therapist who refused to listen to me and missed the signs. Once I pulled myself […]
Read More Types of Bipolar DisorderWhen I think of how I’ll meet my demise I know I’ll either die by suicide or from alcohol poisoning See, I search for happiness at the end of a liquor bottle every chance I get And…I’ve attempted to take my life more times than I care to admit\ So for me, it’s not a […]
Read More 7/13/20 – PoetryI don’t love myself. Hell, most days I don’t even like myself. Growing up I struggled with low self-esteem and at one point I had a deep hatred for myself. If you’d asked me back then how I described myself, words like hideous, fat, devil, monster, and idiot came to mind. I couldn’t even look […]
Read More A Journey to Self-LoveWhy didn’t you fight for us? You left the home we fought so tirelessly to build. You let go of our dreams… Of the nights we’d make love. Of the times I held you in my arms as the little boy in you cried for the man you’re trying to be. Why didn’t you fight […]
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