Healers Need Healing Too – Poetry

Posted on by itsjaimarie

If my depression wins and I take myself out,

I hope everyone knows how much they mean to me.

I’ve fought tirelessly for years and I think my time is near

I’m tired of being a healer because sometimes healers need healing

I need saving…

If I lose my battle with mental illness,

I don’t think anyone would miss me

I’ve been a burden most of my life

I’ve had over 10 suicide attempts and I just can’t figure out,

Why GOD keeps me here to torture me

GOD, can’t you see?

I need saving.

Saving from this hell on earth

Saving from the pain embedded in my heart strings

I paint a smile on my face most days and put on my cape

It’s time for me to save another life

But how can I?

How can I rescue everyone else while I’m dying inside myself

I place bandages on my open wounds and hope they don’t bleed through

I force my depression to keep quiet so I don’t disturb others

It’s time to save another life

No.

It’s time for me to say goodbye

Sometimes the healer needs healing

GOD, please save me

Photo by Christina Deravedisian on Unsplash

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Published by itsjaimarie

Jai Marie is a freelance writer and blogger from Indiana. As a child, she’d lock herself in her room and spend hours writing in her notebook. She started out journaling, writing music, and poetry. While Jai continues to write in these areas, she also explores other niches, such as short story creation and blogging. She also offers writing services under the name J.M. Writes. The itsjaimarie blog was started as a way for Jai to express her creativity and inspire others. It's grown into a platform focused on spreading mental health awareness and discussing different aspects of spirituality. Aside from writing, she loves listening to true crime podcasts, communing with nature, and meditating with her crystals.