Healers Need Healing Too – Poetry

If my depression wins and I take myself out,

I hope everyone knows how much they mean to me.

I’ve fought tirelessly for years and I think my time is near

I’m tired of being a healer because sometimes healers need healing

I need saving…

If I lose my battle with mental illness,

I don’t think anyone would miss me

I’ve been a burden most of my life

I’ve had over 10 suicide attempts and I just can’t figure out,

Why GOD keeps me here to torture me

GOD, can’t you see?

I need saving.

Saving from this hell on earth

Saving from the pain embedded in my heart strings

I paint a smile on my face most days and put on my cape

It’s time for me to save another life

But how can I?

How can I rescue everyone else while I’m dying inside myself

I place bandages on my open wounds and hope they don’t bleed through

I force my depression to keep quiet so I don’t disturb others

It’s time to save another life

No.

It’s time for me to say goodbye

Sometimes the healer needs healing

GOD, please save me

Photo by Christina Deravedisian on Unsplash

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