10/4/18 – Untitled (Poetry)

10/4/18

I need healing.

My journal no longer claims me; even she has no answers

And…

Writing poetry feels forced now.

I need healing…

And my pens running out of ink.

I need healing from the same demons that were there at age 4 and 5 and again at 11, 12, 13, and 19.

 

Disassociating because the trauma is too much

I need healing because I’m unable to let myself be happy.

I need healing because some days it feels like I’m doing nothing more than filling space.

I’m existing, physically,

While mentally I’m floating.

I am not ok and every time I open my mouth to ask for help,

My language is foreign and judge-mental eyes pierce through my being.

I need healing because I’m no longer me…

 

Whoever I used to be…

One thought on “10/4/18 – Untitled (Poetry)

  1. Healing will come from Jesus Christ who says, “Come, and I will give you rest..” Jesus knows about all you’ve been through and are going through daily. He has the answers to your cares. Only He can heal you and inspire you without being judgmental, because He cares for you and loves you. Talk to him just like you would talk to anyone else. And be yourself not what you think he may want you to be when you talk to him. Try Him! Grandma Donna

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