6/18/22 – Journal Entry

On Thursday, June 16th, I celebrated my 24th bearthday. I met the day with deep gratitude. My day was filled with smiles, singing, dancing, and good vegan food. I felt an overwhelming sense of contentment. It feels a bit bittersweet to be walking into a new chapter of life.

A part of me is terrified of growing older but the other part of me is learning to see the beauty of it all.

These last few years have been some of the most trying but each year that I get older, I take time out to appreciate my growth. Not just physical growth, but mental, emotional, and spiritual growth. I am not the same woman I was in 2020 or 2021. I am constantly evolving and I can’t wait to see how I level up next.

I am eternally grateful for this beautiful life despite the shitty world we live in. I realize that sometimes you have to create your own joy. Sometimes while everything around you may be falling apart, you have to find that one reason to smile. And that’s what I do.

That’s not to say I don’t allow myself to feel the bad… I do. I’ve learned to sit with my shit for a while and eventually release it. I’m not always positive but I always pick myself up out of the dark place I sometimes wander to and that’s what’s important.

I’ve reached a point in my life where I have more good days than bad. The younger me prayed for times like this. As I sit here and reflect on my growth, my inner child is crying tears of joy. I love her. I love me.

Photo by Ylanite Koppens: https://www.pexels.com/photo/colorful-balloons-with-confetti-796606/

Here’s a few pictures of me on my bearthday and the delicious vegan food I ate.