2/23/20 – Journal Entry

Trigger warning: Suicide I recently got released from the hospital after being admitted because of two back to back suicide attempts. I overdosed both times. I’m not ok and it’ll probably be a while before I am again. But I’m no longer suicidal so that counts for something. During my first attempt, I was drunk. […]

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9/12/19 – Journal Entry

7:08 AM Right now I’m sitting barefoot outside on my yoga mat, under a tree. This is peace. This is what peace looks and feels like, I know it is. I’ve reached a state of serenity I’ve never experienced in my 21 years on this earth. I’ve fallen in love with the idea of creating […]

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Lessons For My 11-year-old Self

Your dad loves you… even though he’s not around. Stop wishing mom would stop drinking. She won’t… but it’ll get better. Don’t lose your virginity. You’ll regret it in the morning. There will be plenty of time for boys. They don’t matter now. You’re going to feel like you can’t live without him; put the […]

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Who is GOD? – Journal Entry

5/17/19 10:11 AM Yesterday I had therapy. We discussed my feelings of emptiness and possible causes. We talked about if I believe I have purpose and what that purpose could be. Truth is I’m not sure what my purpose is. Sometimes it feels like I’m simply existing… like I have no meaning or value. We […]

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