1/27/21 – Poetry

I’m in a period of transformation. I’m healing the parts of me that have spent years suffering My inner child has been crying out for someone to save her She’s battered and bruised Sinking in an ocean full of tears She’s gasping for air while trying to stay afloat And I’m swimming, desperately trying to […]

Why I’m Practicing Celibacy

I’ve been celibate for 100 days. For me, this is a huge accomplishment. For as long as I can remember, I’ve used sex as a way to cope with my pain. For me, it was easier to just fuck it all away. Sometimes it helped but other times I’d be left lying there in a […]

Recovering From A Suicide Attempt

If you’ve been following my blog for a while, you’d know that I’ve had multiple suicide attempts this year. Shit got dark quickly. Two of these attempts were just a few days apart and the third one was a few weeks later. Even after my hospitalization, I wasn’t ok. Most days I felt stuck and […]

7/13/20 – Poetry

When I think of how I’ll meet my demise I know I’ll either die by suicide or from alcohol poisoning See, I search for happiness at the end of a liquor bottle every chance I get And…I’ve attempted to take my life more times than I care to admit So for me, it’s not a […]

A Journey to Self-Love

I don’t love myself. Hell, most days I don’t even like myself. Growing up I struggled with low self-esteem and at one point I had a deep hatred for myself. If you’d asked me back then how I described myself, words like hideous, fat, devil, monster, and idiot came to mind. I couldn’t even look […]