Supporting a Loved One Through Suicidal Thoughts: What You Can Do

Experiencing suicidal thoughts can feel like you’re in a pit of despair, hopelessly trying to escape, but unable to find your way out. According to the CDC, suicide is a leading cause of death for youth and adults living in the U.S. The first time I remember dealing with suicidal ideation was in middle school. […]

I Survived Multiple Suicide Attempts

My first suicide attempt was when I was in middle school. I’d spent most of my time there being severely bullied, met the first boy I ever loved (who broke my heart), and my home life was a disaster. This is also around the time I began self-harming. After this attempt, I went on to […]

Eulogy – Poetry

5/6/21 What can I say about Jaila? She was talented… But troubled She struggled most days to find meaning And even when she smiled if you searched deep enough you could see the pain in her eyes She got lost at a young age and never quite found her way back She broke herself loving […]

What It’s Like Being In A Psychiatric Hospital

I was blinded by the white lights as soon as I opened my eyes. I knew immediately where I was: the hospital. Here I was again after another failed suicide attempt. By this point, I knew the routine so well. Nurses would come in poking me with needles, doctors would ask me a million questions […]

Recovering From A Suicide Attempt

If you’ve been following my blog for a while, you’d know that I’ve had multiple suicide attempts this year. Shit got dark quickly. Two of these attempts were just a few days apart and the third one was a few weeks later. Even after my hospitalization, I wasn’t ok. Most days I felt stuck and […]